| heck yes |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|12:17 am] |
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shit i totally forgot about my plan to do this thing everyday. see the oc lifestyle has taken over my santa cruzian lifestyle. its back to working 40+ hours at ritz camera at the irvine spectrum, and hanging out with friends, and sleeping. i get so unmotivational and productive here. its hot. makes me just wanna sloooowww dowwwnnnn. olympics. its so amazing. its like del taco . on a late hour of the night, or morning i should say. and its just so entertainign! keepin my ass on the edge of the sofa. time for a bowl:] goodnight |
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| june ninth |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|09:55 pm] |
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| | facing new york <3, melee <3 | ] |
shit im not keeping up with my postings on here. its been a really fun week for me socially. ive been more social these past weeks then prolly the whole rest of the quarter combined. why does that always happen at the end of school years. i always meet these really awesome individuals and then i have to leave them :/ many people here in santa cruz will be missed, especially my new friends i made in kens class. :sniff sniff: im hoping they can all take color photo with ken again next quarter cuase we're going to mojave dessert!
i will also miss my new special spot i found on campus in the music area. its a stairwell outside overlooking the ocean, and fields, shirpping birds, warm wind, secluded, mmm i love it. i think ill say goodbye to it tomorrow, hang out there for awhile after my bob dylan final tomorrow morning.
i loved this quarter. i grew soo much as a person.artist.i got super excited about my future. it was awesome. i only hope to repeat this growth i made this quarter, next year, and this summer.
im very much so looking forward to going down south this summer. tomorrow night actually!
ive been missin many people like crazy down there and i cant wait for the fun times to continue where they always leave off.
i havent been able to update my photo sites and my lj found image page becuase i need to work out some glitches im having with my computer. but ive been collecting-so ill post the site url when its updated!
cheers
kellylee
xox |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 4th, 2004|02:45 am] |
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today i learned some really cool bob dylan lyrics in bob dylan.
like the lion tears the fliesh off of a man
so can a woman who passes herslef off as a male
they sant " danny boy" at his funeral and the lords prayer
preacher talking about christ betrayed
its like earth just opened and swallowed him up
he reached
say one more stupid thing to me before the
final nail is driven in
aint nothing left here partner just the death of the plague that has
left this whole world afraid
there aint no goin back when your foot of pride come down
aint no going back
but he drinks and drinks can be fixed
theres a retired buisnessman
named red
cast down from heaven
and hes out of his head
he feeds off on every one
that he can touch
he said he only deals in cash or sells tickets to a plane crash
youll play the fool and learn how to walk through doors
how to enter into the gates of paradise, no!
how to carry a burden too heavy to be yours
build big universities to study in
sing amazing grace
all the way to the swiss banks
they got mysetery written all over their forehead
turn you into anything that they want you to be
aint nothing left here partner,
just the dust of a plague that has left this whole town afraid
from now on thisll be where youre from
let the dead bury the dead. your time will come
let hot iron blow as he raised the shade
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experience something beyond your ability to ARTICULATE
that"other world"
self awreness-> isolation
the best art is a flame warming our own imaginations a campfire that irradiates some univeral HUMAN EXPERIENCE
dream hallusination as a mirror of reality
lies outside RODINARY TIME and SPAce yet mirrors the every day world.
dreams imaginings hallucinations natural or chemical have helped broaden the scope of art. |
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| book images |
[May. 29th, 2004|02:37 am] |
heres some of the images out of my photo book ..... which by the way you can purchase if interested. just email for more info. atdi_nerdgirl@yahoo.com
i will be hopefully selling my book as well as some oc/sd locations as well as try to set up a group show in san diego this summer where you can purchase a book.
i hope that everyone is having a very lovely friday night!
:]
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| sunday may twentythird |
[May. 23rd, 2004|11:02 pm] |
my art friend andy and i went to sell our art at this DIY print sale that the hipsters of ucsc put on. i cant stand to be around them very long, but it was interesting to see what there were selling. one guy was an amazing painter, but all the rest of um were sellin there thrift stores that theyve altered. very cliche hipster stuff. i sold a book. so that was good. most people didnt buy anything cause they have no money. but at least alot of people looked at it. they all said theythought it was really cool.
i also switched over finally. no im not lesbian now. .... i switched to Panther. i was really scared to but i did it, and the thigns i worried about happened, like my addresses are all gone now, and basically everything. thankfully i was smart for a second and backed up my images to my book at least, so i still can make more. yay. well actually i cant becuase i cant get my printer to work either:/
BUT i can play with imovie now and iphoto's slide show so i can watch nice little slideshows while im laying in bed. mmm i love pleasant environments. |
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| five.eighteen. monday |
[May. 17th, 2004|11:59 pm] |
today i didnt so anything i wanted to do. mainly edit my video due tomorrow, well today now. i need to video my voice doing dialogue for parts of the video, but jen was sitting at the kitchen table and i just couldnt talk when she was in there, just too weird since I needed to be saying sorta bizarre things. and then i was like, who cares what jen thinks anyways, but then we ended up going frocery shopping. when jen goes grocery shopping its not your normal one-stop experience. she goes to three different grocery store. trader joes, costco, and then safeway. so that pretty much took up the whole afternoon. she hilarious. but im not complaining, i had to no food left and hadnt eaten the past two days.
i painted my nails today. red. yeah im in a red nails mood. which means this week should quite fun: ] |
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| five seventeen |
[May. 17th, 2004|12:01 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | the flaming lips | ] |
i finished my photo book this evening. I got this great idea how to bind it, and it turned out so amazing. im so excited about it. at the moent im listening to flaming lips, eating coco puffs, and working on my lj found image poject. and i have tomorrow off. i think i have it the best off this quarter out of all three years here.
ken made me change my mind about graduate school. im gonna try really hard to go now becuase of what he pointed out- hes paying loans back still and until he dies he said, but hes happy what hes doing now. its a lifestlye. its much better than working in a grocery store.... i agree. its just him and his cat in a little pool house room of this rich old couples place in the redwoods. its beautiful. he has all he needs. besides a wife, but then again i dont have much hope for couples any longer anyways. i think he prolly has it better off than a married man his age anyways. and his cat is the best wife ever. |
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| yesss |
[May. 16th, 2004|02:49 am] |
so far im totally kicking this whole goal accomplishing thing's ass.
go here |
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| five.fifteen.saturday |
[May. 15th, 2004|10:27 pm] |
- writing really long posts, and then having it deleted somehow
:deep breath:
ok.
motivation to re-write this....
recap:
goals:
. post at least once a week
. finish my photo book
.create my found lj image project
.update my website once a week
last night i hung out over at the guys' place. there was a bunch of people there. there was drink, smoke, dance, and good times by all.
on friday i went to my professors house for a pool/hanging out/drinkin/enjoying his lovely living space -get together with a few other students. i have to say that im getting another male art teacher crush like my last computer art teacher. i think its becuase im intrigued by their interests, and their accomplishments in life, and the fact that they like me and make a point of it to let me know. older men seem to be the only ones who have been doing that lately:/ why is that?? |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 16th, 2004|11:14 am] |
so here i am. again. its been awhile yes, but friends what can i say, i guess i just lost all inspiration to write in here. i mean, come on, you cant blame me, none of you ever respond to my entries, and i dunno, whats the point? i might as well write in my non online journal.
anyways. this morning i happened to read gaetanos lj and i have to admit that it inspired me. so i will write.
lately, i have basically lost all hope in the opposite sex. yes there will be those sparatic hours/days/weeks even .where i must admit.. i miss them, miss having someone to hang with/smoke/doart/have wild crazi sex with, hold hands, you know the usual.. so i try to ignore all the past memories of the assholes/emotionally distrubed boys that i have mistakenly fallen head over heels with, and i try to be optomistic.
where does one start to find someone that meets all the criteria required to win one over? it has come to the point where i must use this saying.... its like trying to find a fuckin needle in a hay stack friends. so why bother? what really is the point.
but nevermind my past hangups. im gonna do it. im going to be optimistic. so i start by doing the first BIG NO NO which i always do. you think that after like 10 awful very short relationships with guys ive met online, i would come to the conclusion that maybe the friendster and myspace just arent the places to belookin for non asshole/emotionally disturbed guys.
but still. here i am. "browsing" guys that fit my criteria-criteria being location/age/height/and single status. hmmm thats not really a very good criteria is it. but hey im being optimistic. so i check it out. only 40 guys come up out of millions.
and this is when my optimism is crushed. there's just nothing to work with here friends. ive come to realize that you cant just assume that even though a guy may fit the very vague criteria, and may even be remotely attractive/be into art/hey maybe even have a cute dog!/ --it still doesnt mean that they arent probably self-absorbed assholes. going from my experieces. the results clearly show that i am set up for immense failure at meeting nice guys online. so thats it friends. i am done. givenup
id rather do my own thing contently-making my art in my room on weekeneds than hanging out with a guy that prolly is married/has a girlfriend/or has some major emotional problem- and will fuck me over. |
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| my guys |
[Jan. 24th, 2004|11:57 pm] |
i love these guys there the bestest ever
guytano
brandon
nick
ian
james
josh
and that one guy i cant remember the name of hahah
oh man
stoned
its soo good |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 23rd, 2003|05:14 pm] |
UntUcKEd99 (6:08:42 PM): i conquer
UntUcKEd99 (6:10:32 PM): i mean concur
freudian slip erin?erin is gonna take over the world. or at least the AIM world. |
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| today |
[Sep. 11th, 2003|01:49 pm] |
today i feel much better. i spent some time with my mom. shes awesome.
i decided to explain the fuck you. fuck you is directed at myself. and i was trying to take my frustrations out. not on anyone in particular. ive just had a bad week. the stupid fantastic sams lady died my hair black when i wanted just plain simple brown. how hard can it be . its just BROWN. but no. she died it basically black. i hate it. not one person has mentioned anything about it though. except linz cause i told her i was upset about it. my stomach pains have been coming back this week and thats really sucks. the financial aid dep at my school can go to hell. and livejounral/frienster/talking online to people when you really should be talking to people in real life frustrates me. i think i may actually be finally sick of all this stuff. which is very odd for me to say i know since ive been talking on here and addicted since i was like in 8th grade or something. linz would be proud of me. i also hate misunderstandings. im all about communication right now. communication is an amazing thing. like being able to talk to my best friend REALLY for the first time, and being open with eachother. its refreshing and makes me feel like theres hope to life. |
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| fuck you |
[Sep. 10th, 2003|11:49 pm] |
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im done |
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| oh yeah |
[Sep. 9th, 2003|10:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
i havent posted on here in awhile. i had a nice conversation with someone tonight. it was refreshing and nice to know they feel the same way about alot of things. i need to make the most of my last couple of weeks here. this summer went by too quickly. but at least i met some really nice new people |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 9th, 2003|09:40 am] |
i am soo freakin freaked out by these pyschos who IM me.
honestyaddict: i know we're not supposed to think of money when it comes to romance but let me ask you a direct and honest question ok? i'v looked at your pic (staring! at it for an hour -and amoung the thousands here-picked yours as the one i'm most attracted to. Now...if i become a $20-30 MILLIONARE-would you even consider being my wife? |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 1st, 2003|12:28 am] |
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| |  relaxed | ] |
today at work consisted of finishing all my homework for the next 5 days. reprinting some of joshs photos which i already did, and rang up a whopping TWO people who bought disposable cameras. the sad thing is that i wished i had something to actually do. im spoiled. then i went over to johns and relaxed in his spa and had a few beers. mmmm. it made my back feel kinda better;its been hurtin lately. i sit funny in chairs. |
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